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ldakdjlkf? [02 Apr 2006|10:42am] [ mood | blank ] my two weeks of break was alright. in all honesty im happy to go back to school and see my friends every day. iv been sitting around my house doing nothing, not how i imagined my break to be. i found out last night that julian didnt get into florida. i know he wanted to go there but as selfish as it sounds im a little happier knowing he will be closer to me. college is going to suck , im ganna go from seeing the love of my life every day, to oh maybe, a few times a month, if that.   life seems to be going by so slowly right now. im looking forward to when my life decides to speed up and become interesting again. that sentence doesn't sound correct. hmm. you get my point. mom and i are on a slim fast diet. shake in the morning, shake and a salad for lunch, healhty stuff for dinner, work out for half an hour a day. god i hope this works. im sick of looking in the mirror and seeing a complete stranger. i dont even know me any more. i use to be so fun and happy and out going and cute and thin. now im just over weight, boring ,and worthless. im trying to have confidence, but its hard. any ways, i saw the butterfly affect (effect?) last night and it was really good. sigh, im so tierd. i didnt fall asleep till 5 :[ i know no one reads this so thats why i wrote a whole book. hope all is well with every one. 1 comment|post comment

LSDKJ [25 Feb 2006|10:32am] [ mood | bouncy ] i need friends. 1 comment|post comment

snowwww! [05 Feb 2006|11:52am] [ mood | sad ] julian and i whent to hoover dam friday. it was rainy and windy. but really pretty. friday night was insane. i T.Pd julians house, which by the way was my first time T.Ping ever. and whent to bed around 7 in the morning. saterday i woke up at allys around 11 and whent home. my family and julian whent to look at cameras down town. god i want one so bad. we had food. got ice cream. and saw puppies. im getting a puggle someday. me and julian had a fight kind of. i cried. he cried. idk what to do. i hope to see him today. im worried about him. i miss my friends. all i do is play basketball. do homework. and hang out with julian. which hanging out with julian id love to do at any time. but i miss my friends. over the summer, my plans were ashleys plans. ashleys plans were my plans. and now we live tottaly separate  lives. i miss meeting new people all the time. as lame as it sounds i miss my myspace buddies. i miss being crazy and running around the short north all the time. i miss matt. we use to be close and now i dont even know him any more. ljaslkdfjalsdf. 3 comments|post comment

[18 Jan 2006|08:52pm] light me like a ciggerette, and put me out like you alwasy do. 2 comments|post comment

mmm love [07 Jan 2006|11:20am] [ mood | happy ] 3 comments|post comment

anti social much??? [06 Jan 2006|12:47am] [ mood | calm ] i whent to the high five tonight. and for the first time,in really long time; i felt so incredible out of place. i decided that im going to chop of my long hair and over use my black eyeliner. because thats the only way any of my old friends will talk to me. i said hi to sebby, and he didnt even say hi back, thats how lame im geting :[ im slowly becomeing more and more anti social. and i dont like it one bit. but hey, for once i have something positive to say :D i am in love. julian, is the only person i can just talk to when im down, and all of that goes away. lovelovelovelovelove 3 comments|post comment

[02 Jan 2006|09:29pm] [ mood | crappy ] i hate basketball. i hate basketball. i hate basketball. ihatebasketballihatebasketballihatebasketballihatebasketballihatebasketball IHATEBASKETFUCKINGBALL. so long weekend. so long last weekend of freedom. hello, running 2034902394092834 miles a day hey, maybe ill lose weight!!!!!!!!! *doubtful* 3 comments|post comment

dead. [30 Dec 2005|10:51am] [ mood | blah ] so, i've felt really lazy this past week. its not good though, im actually starting to go crazy. left in a small room, for hours and hours on end, can't be healthy. when im left to think for that long, i start to think to hard, and then i get all worked up and, its a mess. man whatev. i need to get outta hurr i NEED to go to ragorama and buy cute things, because i have no cute things theres so much to do, so many people i want to see. but i feel like im not cool enough for them any more  what happend? put music to our troubles and we'll dance them away... 5 comments|post comment

[27 Dec 2005|06:13pm] my name is sara santillan and i love ashley 5 comments|post comment

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